Dreamer's Refuge

A student of the Dhamma and Discipline of the Middle Way

Category: Meditation

Meditation Update 4/4/16

Had an interesting experience today during meditation.

I have been meditating for 1 hour and 30 minutes for the past month or so. Only the last 15 min I get a somewhat uncomfortable kink in my back, probably from sitting wrong, or slumping forward as I get deeper. (I will need to work on that).

For the last 15 minutes I usually lay down in bed and finish there, and then continue longer for another 25+ minutes.

I did the same thing today, only after laying down, I had my first Astral Projection experience. I was getting very deep, in between consciousness and unconsciousness, and could feel my body doing this weird vibration thing that would arise then go away, come up and go away, like I was getting plugged into an outlet, and then disconnected, a switching being flipped on and off. I figured out that I could control this, so I made the vibrations come and get stronger.

As I did this, my “black” field of view (of my eyes being closed) shifted to me being in my old house in Chicago. I knew I was meditating, but I could also control myself in this new surrounding. It was in black and white, but as I focused on the vibrations to make them go deeper, it turned into color.

I could walk around the home, either by actually moving my legs, or willing myself to move toward a certain direction. I essentially floated forward, or up and down.

I went outside, there was a thunderstorm, and the rain felt really refreshing as opposed to cold/wet. For some reason my mind shifted back to my body that was in bed, and I instantly snapped back into my body in bed.

All the World’s a stage in Plato’s Cave

All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
Then, the whining school-boy with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then, a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden, and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then, the justice,
In fair round belly, with a good capon lined,
With eyes severe, and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws, and modern instances,
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

— William Shakespeare

The Buddha, in his discourses, wanted to get this across to people, and this topic has come up again and again in different cultures. It is interesting that mindfulness, meditation, and listening to Dhamma, etc, all make this point very clear. Yet most people do not see it. I feel like I was the player, but now, instead being part of the play, I feel like I am in the audience, the observer. Though, from time to time, when mindfulness is lacking, I get caught up in the play. Hopefully as I continue my practice, this will become less and less of an occurrence.

Meditation Update 3/3/16

Had an interesting experience today during meditation.

I went from equanimity to what feels like an expansion of mind, and a fading away of the body… I could not feel myself breathing which caused distress, and instinctually I had to take a breath. This caused me to go back to equanimity. I kept on it and hit this state a few more times with the same outcome…(basically yo-yoing back and forth, for about an hour)

I got a bit frustrated, and got up and took a lying posture. I continued 6R and smiling to a state where my body had what felt like energy running through it, and then all of a sudden there was a momentary loss of consciousness (I could not hear, and I do not think I was conscious for that moment but I was nominally “aware”.) I only realized that happened after I gained consciousness again because it was like a hole in a stream of consciousness. It was basically like a blip… like a line that had a sharp dip in it, and then continued back where it was.

Meditation Update 2/29/16

Today, for the first time, I stopped feeling part of my body after about 9 minutes, or so. The mind became very clear, awake, I was not happy, or joyful, just seemingly peaceful and content.

I noticed that I could think, and this did not knock me out of the state I was in. So I started thinking about Dependent Origination, and had a dream like vision come up of me standing in front of an open refrigerator full of food.

And I noticed that just by looking at it, the eyes themselves had craving. Just by opening them, there is subconscious craving. And that this is true for all the other six sense bases. (though I only experienced the eyes directly). Even when we do not want anything “consciously”, subconsciously craving is always there with the six sense bases.

Not sure what Jhana this was (or if I was even in a Jhana) but it was a pretty interesting experience.

Meditation Update 2/25/16

This is an update to Meditation Update 2/18/16

Had a similar experience, but this time the energy sensation was a lot subtler.

I noticed that I was breathing out of both sides of my nose (usually I only breath through one or the other nostril), my body was again distant, and seemingly “stiff”, I also felt the it cool.

I was not as excited this time, and stayed in this state for a while (a few minutes), it was a very content/relaxing experience.

Unfortunately my Insight Timer (set for 1 hour) went off before I could go further.

I am going to set Timer for 1:30 hours from now on, and longer as is warranted.

Meditation Update 2/18/16

Had an interesting experience during meditation today, I was meditating for about an hour, and heard something that sounded like a baseball bat hitting a ball, a distinct “crack”.

Then a few minutes later, all of a sudden, my body started vibrating, it felt as if electricity was running through it, a fast “hum”. I also heard a sound; a vibrating hum of energy. My body became stiff, distant and my hands felt warm, as this was going on and my mind became really focused (This was going on while I was also excited about what was happening because this was new).

I think the excitement disrupted my mindfulness because that feeling slowly became weaker and then went away, and I came out of the meditation; looking at how long I had been meditating, the Insight Timer said about 49 minutes.

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